caught a snippet finally

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Been having a lot of big aha moments in my dreams, which unerringly make me crazy to hold on to them when I wake up. I mean I'm dreaming, the aha snaps me to the awareness that I'm dreaming, which snaps me to the determination, but it stays crystal clear until the moment I open my eyes and flip into awake from asleep. This is so infuriating... even though I don't bother with the fury part anymore, it happens with such regularity.

This morning I didn't wait for an aha or the rest of the drill that comes after. A blond man was gently starting to pull me out of a doorway and telling me it was the "wrong sana". Upon these words I simply opened my eyes and got out of bed. It stuck. We were in the doorway, faced to enter, and he was taking my arm to turn me away. I was not aware of going into the doorway or agreeing to turn. No reaction to, no feeling about, the man, the doorway, the turning. Just barely aware of the man and only kept "wrong sana" from what he said. I know he was referring to a Sanskrit term. Felt he must have been unclear on the concepts and meant "yana" [vehicle] instead, but some Googling around tells me that, no, he may have meant "sana" and I have to figure out who's telling me that and the quality of what is meant by that.
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