mister north popped in to remind me of my weirdness

[click image, Keiser Report, 25 minutes]

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Which ended up reminding me of the rut I'm in and the even worse ruts many more are in. This time, the age-old in-a-rut problem is so much worse than usual. I might just be in one because even as lifelong habit needs must be dropping off, and is, new habits definitely helped me live through my period of no-resort-to-my-wits, and even newer ones have helped me deal with my lifelong problem with absentmindedness... which has gotten worse... much worse, lately. I know some of it is to do with some monster stressors in my personal life as well as in the life we all share, all are. Plus, I'm still dealing with my lifelong need to improve things for people. I can't improve things for people! Yes, I can put it out there to give them the idea, and even be there to help them process that idea into something that really does improve things for them, but I cannot improve life for anyone else.

I'm no good for anything until I get over this. Look what a horrific trap that was in all my years yonder! OMG. Ignoring the sage advice of Sure, you drag a drunk out of the road, but you don't talk to him, I kept dragging drunks out of the road and talking to them, thinking I was saving sentient beings. I was merely becoming ever more drained by sentient beings and helping them in a way they should not be helped. Not if you're me. If I were into helping for drill, it would have been jake, but that is not my bag. I let the thing from childhood come up and cloak itself as enlightening being. It's a wonder the buddhas didn't put me in the hospital or break my car to help me stop fucking up that badly.

I try nowadays to start my day with the newest installment of the Keiser Report. It is very weird that someone like me would get so much out of something that is essentially aimed at the world economic situation, but there's so very much more than just that inhering each broadcast/netcast. As I was watching this one today, I noticed the number of views was only 321, and as I'm writing it's risen to 326. I realize the video may only have gone up on YouTube in the last hour or two, and that it is available on the RT site and broadcast to whatever analog stations carry it and on Livestation [which ROCKS, if you don't have it], but still, I find this impossible to believe. The number is way too low, and I think YouTube is purposely doing this to any number of truth-telling videos. But anyway, I find myself listening to Max and Stacy with regularity because their bluntness and heart make them worthy of all our attention, make them actually doing something that can help the masses. This is something too rare.

You will never guess another real thing that has come to my lights lately. I'm still aghast. So you can't even guess, but I'll just tell you: I'm finding waaaaay more worthy of note news on sites more out there than even your average independent, Truther, or Libertarian sites. No shit. I move my bookmarks around in their order on the drop down menus according to their usefulness to me. This has been shifting more than would be seemly and it is NOT all about my shifting ideas about what is useful. This means people must now resort to those they have always found the most unbelievable to find anything believable, anything REAL. Sorry state of affairs.

This is irrefutable proof that the controllers have so muddled the consensus that us weirdos who can't be hypnotized or dumbed down enough are the only ones left on whom you might rely for evidence of the actual. You have to disregard your suspicions about UFO abductees, channelers, crystal freaks, pyramid power hitters, space warriors, 2012ers, the works, to find bits of the actual... sometimes even huge chunks of it.

You can spend your time with those whose prose validates your agony over the awful things in the world, and who could blame you for that? Except it's just the equivalent of petting you when you're depressed, not going to give you any energy at all.

This Neil Kramer fellow helped point back up the thing I've been wrestling with for quite a while; to wit: that the bombardment of bad news helps keep people too low to function as adults, actually makes most sane people want to curl up in little balls and melt away. The problem of balancing a cogent view of the world as it is and getting energy to have a positive effect on it is HUGE. It always has been, but it has been made exponentially worse in recent years, and the exponent just runs harder and faster by the day. No brakes being applied.

Whatever. The world sucks³. We have to fix it. As I said last night, Terance's way might be the only chance we have left, and if you are a straight person who's really just a frightened proto-flake, get the hell over it. How could a visit with a sacred medicine be ANY worse than sitting there befuddled while we slaughter innocents in their sleep?

It couldn't, and it might give you the spiritual vitality to HALT the slaughter.

What happens if we all were mentally free enough to start laughing at displays of wealth and privilege and power? What if this "elite" suddenly became as universally risible as they have made "conspiracy nuts" and "New Age Bliss Ninnies"? We could DO that. What if suddenly, instead of dissing the snot out of the MSM and Tea Partiers and Hatfields or McCoys, we ALL started making it socially unacceptable to be Angelina Jolie, David Rockefeller, Lloyd Blankfein, Bibi Netanyahu, Prince William, Hillary Clinton, Dick Cheney, Arianna Huffington, David deRothschild, Al Gore, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera, EVEN just total nobodies you see driving assholishly-expensive cars? Are they going to use their Active Denial weapons on you for giggling and deriding their utterly profligate and nonsensical blather?

Could you screw up the courage to do THAT much?

Get all your friends doing it?

Well, could you?

It would be the lucid thing to do.

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It occurs to me after some muddling around my hut that I should point out that these "controllers" are only able to control through your consent. You must withdraw that. We must explore how. It's VERY close to Michael Parenti's thing about the dominant paradigm, and our stupid habit of making liberal complaints where radical analyses belong. The controlling paradigm is deadly... not just to us... but to the PLANET. Don't give me your crap about the planet healing itself X number of millennia after we've suicided our species and all the rest. IT'S A COPOUT. It's just the admission that you do not plan to bestir yourself to make ANYTHING better.

You can't keep whining that you are too depressed and too overwhelmed. It is your place as an adult to remedy this, and Terance made a fucking awesome point for all you bedraggled sorts with good-for-nothing good hearts! Eat a peyote button! Munch some magic mushrooms. SNAP OUT OF IT. Or should I say SNAP INTO IT?

This goes against my Zen training to declare, except insofar as it conforms with the unshirkable duty to use what works. The ancients meant to use the cultural lexicon at hand, to not get stuck in what historically worked but has turned into mere dogma for charlatans to fumigate you with, but this is an emergency and sacred medicine IS a lexicon that people of all cultures are able to understand, if they do it right, don't just eat the stuff without the proper orientation, situation and guidance. Like Terance pointed out, some of us are just too frightened to get anything out of it even if we do it, but those of us who are after real self-knowledge, genuinely sick enough of not being up to the world around us, will get on the right subject instanter.

We need instanter... immediately.

Even if everything you ever heard about 2012 is complete blather and only going to be turned into another opportunity for the controllers of the controlling paradigm to fuck with our heads, SOMETHING hugely negative this way cometh and we can't survive that in any positive sense if we don't start getting the courage for this right away.

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No, really. STOP BEING TOO LATE....

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