[click image, Kramer interview, player in the right sidebar, listen again please].
I watched the Matrix movies. Whoever it was recommending them for their Gnostic content was right to do so, but he might also have said Zen, or Sufi.... It was very obvious where it was stuck in and I was struck by how much these movies stole from so many others and how much of these were stolen for Avatar. And "Zion"? Do you suppose they did that to stroke the Israeli boosting thing? Naw, Zion refers to "the spiritual point from which reality emerges". Would that Zionists understood that correctly. I don't have to watch again. That's not out there. That's stuff I already know by heart, but it is waaaay cool they try to get it into the general public's consciousness.
Anyway, I'm going to the ER. This ALWAYS happens on weekends and holidays. You may have been able to tell earlier, but this psychedelic over-exposure here, makes it plainer still. Something is bad wrong with my eyes. They are infected and inflamed and it's getting worse. This keeps happening every few weeks and I hop myself up on ibuprofen and try to get the fuckers at the clinic to give me an appointment or a referral to an ophthalmologist and they're like a pile of boulders. I'm worried that it's something worse, or will be if I keep living through each episode. The photophobia is coming back, and that is NOT a good sign.
So. Right. I'm going to the hospital and I'm not leaving until they at least give me some antibiotic drops.
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Iritis? I have iritis. There was a doctor there who seemed actually to not be an impostor, and he put about a thousand different drops of things in my eyes. I've scratched the cornea on my left eye, too. I have a whole mound of drops and goo and ibuprofen and my eyes are so dilated from the stuff that keeps down the photophobia gig that I see about four times more poorly than the blind I already was.
I haven't slept in twenty-four hours. I think I'll just have myself a little nap now.
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love, 99
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Fear of eye problems has given me no desire for contact lenses.
ReplyDeleteOnce I had a car radiator throw hot antifreeze into my eye followed almost immediately by wind blown concrete dust. The whole surface of the white part of my eye became a huge blister like bubble. I was two hours from home and any medical help. By the time I got home it had shrunk to half its size so I kept flushing it with distilled water and by the next morning it was almost normal again. It cleared up all by itself with no permanent damage.
Well, taking my contacts out seems to help it clear up, but I don't think they're what's causing it. It's mostly my left eye, with sympathetic feelings in the right one, and sometimes it seems to move from one side to the other, but I'm afraid it's going to be a big No Can Do on these Cyclogyl drops. They're making me feel ill and my eyes are so dilated that my big problem with blindness is seeeeeeeriously worse.
ReplyDeleteDamn! Iritis simply means inflammation of the iris. Doesn't take a House to figure that out. Did the doc suggest anything that could have caused it? Have you recently started on a new bottle of contact lens cleaner? Is it from China?
ReplyDeleteOh, crikey, fuck! Yes. I don't use it that often because I have the stay in all the time kind you only switch out once a month, but I use it for when I'm getting too much pollen and dust or whatever in my face. It's called "Aquify" from Ciba Vision [Novartis]... but with four pair of glasses on I can only make out that it doesn't say WHERE it's from on the bottle.
ReplyDeleteI know it's the drops making me THIS blind, but the blindness was getting worse before the drops, too.
I've got movie star eyes just now for sure... or "cocaine eyes" as the hipsters trying to pick me up always used to say to try to talk me into bed.
But....
The kid this morning was the first time I ever met anyone at that hospital I actually believed was a doctor. The rest have all seemed to be people they plucked off the street and dressed in scrubs. I mean, fer fucksakes, I'M a better doctor than any of them... and that's not sayin' much, dude, not much. I thought it was an eye infection I was just having trouble shaking, but he nailed it just off the symptoms on the list from the intake "nurse". My pupils were two completely different sizes again. Photophobia, not as bad by half as last time, but still bad, bloodshot right around the iris, the works. Every symptom precisely as advertised. Put numbing drops in my eyes first, and bip bam, instant relief. Then he checked my ocular pressure in each eye. Then he put the steroid drops in. Then he rigged me up to a little mobile eye doctor's light ray inspector, found the corneal scrape, put some dye in to be sure and assess the full damage, which was not much, and I probably did while trying to snatch the lens out of my rapidly increasingly painful eye a few hours before. Inside twelve hours I went from hey-my-eyes-hurt to HEY-HEY-HEY-NOW-HEY-NOW-MY-EYES-HURT.
ReplyDeleteI snapped. I figured the impostors at the hospital would at least give me some helpful drops, as opposed to the impostors at the clinic telling me I can have an appointment in five weeks... despite my protestations of very scary pain and photophobia and maybe my brain is trying to escape out my eyeball.
You tell them something hurts damn bad, and, ZAP, yer a fucking drug-seeker for certain. SATANIC MORONS.
He said this is usually a virus, like herpes or AIDS, but I don't have either one of those. The intertubes say it's usually autoimmune or toxins. I was leaning toward the autoimmune thing because of the Hashimoto's thyroiditis, and other little things that pop up betimes that seem to have a vague autoimmune connection... I mean, not like lupus or anything drastic, but definitely present... and it fits my profile like a glove. My hotrod nervous system that has run backups for most of my nerves, and my Formula One biochemistry. It goddam SOUNDS like me to have my own immune system knocking me down while it has a cow about imagined invaders....
ReplyDeleteBut... that thing about the lens solution is sounding lucid as heck... except... it usually feels better after I've used it and doesn't get ugly until a couple weeks later...?
Anyway, send a seeing eye dog to come do some grocery shopping for me, would you?
Maybe not from China, but maybe past the expiration date. If you don't use it often, it could get too old before you finish the bottle.
ReplyDeleteThe case is also a possible source of contamination. That's why they provide a new case with each new bottle.
I recommend smoking a joint, but then you knew that already. :)
I only bought it a couple months ago, and it doesn't expire for another year, and the case came with a special bacteria-resistant coating. Anyway, I boil the snot out of all my contacts cases, with distilled water, fairly frequently.
ReplyDeleteYou and yer pot. It's like alcoholics and booze! A cure-all! Except, actually, turns out hemp oil may CURE skin cancer. I saw a video by a guy who used it to totally clear up a big ass lesion on his NOSE. Amazing. I have a hard time thinking anyone would be THAT nasty behind trying to get it legalized, but, well, maybe....
I lean toward believing him because that bible-thumper barber who cut my hair in Mendo World carried only hemp oil products because she said hemp oil is the ONLY one with molecules small enough to actually penetrate hair. The rest just goop it up and drag it down or dry it up and frizz it out. This squared PRECISELY with my experience of hair products.
ReplyDeleteBut if that guy was making it up about the hemp oil CURING his skin cancer to add weight on the dopers' side, he should be SHOT, because you KNOW thousands of poor people with cancer lesions on their faces will be rushing to get some. Basal cell and squamous cell carcinomas are pretty hard to die from because they're very slow, but if yer slathering useless shit all over them for a couple years you could be a dead person... and if it's MELANOMA you could be a dead person radically faster than that.
There's all kinds of evidence both THC and CBD kill cancer cells. It could explain why all the cigs haven't given me lung cancer. `
ReplyDeleteThere was a recent study which showed that compounds in pot smoke actually seemed to have prevented cancers in people who smoked tobacco.
ReplyDeleteYou're looking like I do when my allergies are flaring up! Some days the pollens get me so bad I just want to keep my head under water to soothe my eyes.
ReplyDeleteRight! That's invariably what I think is going on every time it starts in, but then it fairly quickly gets beyond the pale and I stop thinking it's just my allergies....
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