i think it musta been huge

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Because the stream tanked quite a few times while I was watching. It always let me back on, but I think the streams tank when there are more people coming on than servers serving. So just being on TV was NOT enough for this... thirty years later. I wonder if it ever will be.

It was very strange for me to see Andy in here so much because he can't ever be this old in my head. We had a great friendship going in Sausalito when I was a girl, and he was a boy. He was there recording with some Country star, and I know it was someone huge, but I can't remember who it was, and I'm thinking the album didn't get made, seem to remember Andy shrugging and saying something to the effect of "shit happens". Our time was cut short. It was during one of my times hiding from home, staying full time at the hotel to escape the relentlessness of eighteen guys making my telephone and mailbox and front door smoke from their burning imperatives. Before the recording was called off, we would sit out on the deck overlooking the bay and drink coffee and talk about wonderful things together once or twice a day, for twenty minutes or a few hours, depending on what was up or down at the studio. He didn't hit on me. It was bliss. He was just wonderful in each moment. I was very sorry he had to go away too soon.

It makes me feel really good to know that kind of wonderful was helping to fill John's last days on earth.

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love, 99
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